Someday...

As a mom of 2 little boys I find myself dreaming of "Someday"...

Someday I will sleep 8 hours uninterrupted again...

Some day I will be able to make it through an entire dinner with out someone sitting on my lap, asking for a bit of my food, screaming that they don't like this, and spilling a cup of milk on the floor...

Someday I will clean my house and it will stay clean for longer than 5 minutes...

Someday I will be able to watch a television show that doesn't involve pups, garbage trucks and a curious monkey...

Someday I will be able to go to the bathroom with out an audience...

Someday I will be able to walk out of the house with out 4 snacks, 2 changes of clothes, band-aids, a potty chair and toys for both hands...

Someday I will be able to get a workout done with about being interrupted by a little one climbing on my back...

Someday I won't have to change dirty diapers & be yelled at from the bathroom to "WIPE MY BUTT"...

Someday I'll be able to leave the house with out tears, mom guilt and little ones clinging hard to my legs.

Someday I will eat a hot meal...

Someday I will have an adult conversation with out being interrupted...

Someday I won't be the referee that keeps the peace and makes sure that everyone has equal shares and equal times.

But As often as I find myself thinking about this Someday; I also find my self thinking that...

Someday they won't climb up into my lap to read their favorite stories...

Someday they won't need to cuddle when they fall and bump their heads...

Someday they will be too cool to give me a kiss as I say goodbye at school...

Someday I won't hear giggles as we play...

Someday a hug is not going to heal a broken heart..

Someday all of the first will be over...

Someday they won't need me to scare away all of the monsters...

As much as I find myself dreaming of that "Someday" I realize that all too quickly it will come. And when that "Someday" comes I will miss it; I will look back and be sad that it went so fast. So instead of trying to bottle all of those memories up. I'll stay present in my someday...I'll stay present in the hard, in the happy, in the sad and in the maddening times. I'll stay present so I can hold on to them deep inside my memory & heart. So when that "Someday" comes I will be able to say that I lived every second with them, experienced every up and down, that I didn't wish a moment away and let it be and experienced it to the fullest.

That "Someday" will come soon enough, until then I'll hold on to every. little. moment. I'm given.